Monday, May 19, 2008
haha jus wanna fa xie my emoness first ba...
dun tink i was in the right mind when i tot u bother about me... even if i wasn't askin u about personal matters... but stilll...i noe i was dreamin that there might be a chance... a chance 2 even get a bit closer 2 u...no i wasnt dreamin... i wasdrunk i tink.. cos only drunk ppl got this very unrealistic picture of ppl around him ba... n only drunk ppl go so optimistic... even creative ba... cos this had never happened... its somthing dat u imagined urself... maybe being drunk is good... n best is dat i can go drunk without drinkin alcohol... den oso dun need bother bout side effects... n i can be floating around this little world i created... a little world wif u... n i might even be happy...even feel dat i'm lucky n fortunate.. but i'll be v lucky if u really notice me around in de first place... back in the real worldbut wad if i woke up from de fake world i had been living in? n i made a big fool of myself by still tinkin dat we r close? i tink i might not be able 2 survive ba...so while i tink i can survive withoutu i mus brain wash myself...s wad if u dun notice me??so wad if u ignore me??I WONT CARE!!!IGNORE ME 4 ALL I CARE!!!!!LIKE I CARE!!!! but actually i still care...reason y i'm such a bad writer, a bad arguer, cnt write argumentative essay, cnt convince others of my views... cos i cnt even convince myself of my own views...cnt even brainwash myself....
--zixin-- ♥
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